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Post by Fox Mulder on Nov 25, 2007 1:51:15 GMT -5
*Mulder propped his head up on one hand so he could look over at her. She seemed unsatisfied with his answer.*
"Wait, Poe. What is it? What do you want to know? It's hard to understand what anyone else is feeling; but I'll try to help you explain it."
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Post by Poe on Nov 25, 2007 1:57:07 GMT -5
*Poe swallowed, trying to accept the gesture.*
"It...it doesn't feel like sex. I mean...that was enjoyable as well, but..."
*She frowned deeper.*
"I...I feel it. When I am sexually satisfied. It is as if something else is still wanting. That I...want. Something."
*She sighed heavily in frustration, rolling onto her side and curling up facing away from him.*
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Post by Fox Mulder on Nov 25, 2007 2:00:43 GMT -5
*Mulder draped an arm around her after pulling up the covers.*
"Something from me?" *he asked quietly.* "Is it something you've felt before?"
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Post by Poe on Nov 25, 2007 2:06:16 GMT -5
*Poe's eyes darkened in contemplation.*
"Similar, but..."
*She sighed once more.*
"Sometimes...Collectors accidentally...over sensitize. Normally it is with a primary specimen. But this..."
*She shook her head.*
"It is...more intense."
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Post by Fox Mulder on Nov 25, 2007 2:07:04 GMT -5
*He watched her silently for a moment.*
"Is that..." *he swallowed.* "Is that a bad thing?"
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Post by Poe on Nov 25, 2007 2:13:17 GMT -5
*Poe lowered her eyes with a small shrug.*
"It is generally frowned upon for Collectors to develop any attachments. It is...an added complication to our purpose."
*She licked her lip.*
"But...it does not feel wrong. It's...it is nice. I think. It scares me though."
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Post by Fox Mulder on Nov 25, 2007 2:15:52 GMT -5
*Mulder smiled softly.*
"I know what you mean," *he said.* "Me too."
*Maybe it wasn't such a bad thing, to be diverted from her purpose, Mulder thought darkly. He wasn't sure he was too happy about it to begin with.*
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Post by Poe on Nov 25, 2007 2:20:49 GMT -5
*Poe looked up at him with innocent curiosity.*
"Are you forbidden from attachment as well, sir?"
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Post by Fox Mulder on Nov 25, 2007 2:22:19 GMT -5
*Mulder blinked.*
"Oh. No. Not as such. I meant about being scared. But feeling nice. I guess... I guess I haven't allowed myself attachments. Not since Samantha... I guess that's not the same thing, though."
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Post by Poe on Nov 25, 2007 2:26:49 GMT -5
*Poe's brow furrowed deeply.*
"Samantha? Who is that?"
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Post by Fox Mulder on Nov 25, 2007 2:28:22 GMT -5
*Mulder grimaced.*
"Sorry. Samantha's my sister. The one who they took... I guess I haven't really allowed anyone in since her. Because she was taken away and there was nothing I can do. I guess part of me doesn't want to go through that again. So... yeah. Relationships scare me."
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Post by Poe on Nov 25, 2007 2:32:21 GMT -5
*Poe thought immediately of Jake's Lizzie and frowned.*
"But...it was my understanding that...siblings here...they do not copulate, correct?"
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Post by Fox Mulder on Nov 25, 2007 2:39:08 GMT -5
*Mulder could not suppress a bark of muffled shocked laughter.*
"Not generally, no," *he said.* "Though it's not unheard of--never smiled upon, though. But it doesn't matter; lots of people are close enough to their siblings that their relationships with other people can be influenced by them. Such as losing your closest friend when you're a child--it made me mistrustful of others. Of getting close to them, anyway. It's not that it makes sense, from a logical standpoint. But psychology has a way of not caring."
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Post by Poe on Nov 25, 2007 2:48:48 GMT -5
*Poe's gaze shifted slightly, as if trying to follow the logic somewhere.*
"So you...do not seek me...as her surrogate?"
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Post by Fox Mulder on Nov 25, 2007 2:51:04 GMT -5
*The thought amused him a little. Maybe she was on to something there--but it didn't matter.*
"No," *he said.* "I can't say your presence here is unrelated, but... I like you, Poe. I like your questions and your wonder and jesus, the sex is great. I was only trying to explain to you why I might be a little afraid, too. Because I lost her--and I've spent most of my life trying to avoid liking anyone enough to be destroyed when they leave."
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