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Post by Nicolas de Lenfent on Jan 22, 2009 10:43:45 GMT -5
I read a book on astrology for couples last year. Or maybe it was a few years before. I can't find the book any longer. The astrologer wrote of the Pisces woman that she has all of the mysteries of Eve and some of her own. That's rather what you're like, except, of course, that it's not strictly female. It's like that, though. Women are sphynxes, but every sphynx is not a woman.
Sometimes. If I am aware of it at the time. It does need to be pointed out to me on occasion.
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Post by Armand on Jan 22, 2009 21:26:56 GMT -5
No one has ever come up with such interesting comparisons as you, Nicolas.
Is it something that bothers you? If you would like for me to, I can tell you when your control is waning. If not, I'll remain silent.
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Post by Nicolas de Lenfent on Jan 23, 2009 12:49:19 GMT -5
Oh, that's flattering, but I highly doubt it. There are certainly others who have come up with better. Shakespeare, for one. I wish Shakespeare could have written about you. You must have existed around the same time.
I wonder if it does bother me. Sometimes, I'm sure it does, but I can't really remember it afterwards at all times. If ever my behavior is distressing, or if it would be amusing to you to point it out, I won't mind that you do. I'd never notice it on my own.
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Post by Armand on Jan 23, 2009 13:03:12 GMT -5
We did. I remember hearing of him when he began to be very popular. Perhaps had I know how great he would be, I would have visited him, but of course I had no idea.
All right.
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Post by Nicolas de Lenfent on Jan 23, 2009 13:18:28 GMT -5
I would have visited him even if I hadn't known, I think - Lestat would have too. The futility of fame would have been as much a draw. And I suppose Lestat and I have never lost our fondness for the performing arts. It doesn't seem to have left either of us. But this is not to be unkind to you, Armand. He was just a man. Doubtless he'd have disappointed. Sometimes I feel conflicting impulses are in us, both to throw ourselves out in the world, because we must experience to continue our existence, and to hide ourselves, because the littlest thing might crush us. I don't imagine it's just me thinks that.
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Post by Armand on Jan 23, 2009 13:23:57 GMT -5
On the contrary, he wouldn't have disappointed because he was a man. Have you ever been enchanted by a mortal? Of course you have. And talent like that in a mortal body is so intoxicating.
So you still go see plays?
I don't think I've ever thought of it quite like that, but it's probably true.
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Post by Nicolas de Lenfent on Jan 23, 2009 13:28:23 GMT -5
Hm. I'm dubious. I don't believe I have ever been enchanted by a mortal in all my life. Fond of one. It's happened once. Were you intoxicated by Daniel? Did he know?
No. No, not like that. I've been to school performances and spied on young men and women playing improvisation games, but I don't like to go out into the world very much... I go to a lot of concerts, though. They seem to have the same anonymity wherever you are and whoever is playing.
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Post by Armand on Jan 23, 2009 13:41:15 GMT -5
I told him similar things, but I doubt he believed me. He was so jaded after a while, and innocent at the same time. But I didn't even mean to a degree such as that- all mortals are beautiful to me, in their own way. Perhaps these vampire eyes see things they don't see in themselves. Lestat talked of sitting in cafes just to be near them, in the midst of them, to watch. That's the sort of thing I meant.
I don't understand the anonymity of seeing a concert versus seeing a play.
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Post by Nicolas de Lenfent on Jan 23, 2009 13:57:45 GMT -5
Oh, yes. All right. I know that. I go all sorts of places to be around them and to watch them under the lights. I think the lights must look strange on me, though. They stare sometimes. But individually, they don't hold me. I wish they did, sometimes. But then, I suppose I would be nervous about finding someone like your Daniel - I wouldn't be able to trust myself.
And I like other vampires just as much. I've found I can watch the very young, new ones without them noticing. I wonder if I've ever been watched like this, but I doubt it.
In a concert, it feels as though everyone in the crowd is invisible, myself just as much as the rest of them. I don't feel that way, sitting in a theater. I feel as though someone will turn and see me and notice me and I get very phobic.
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Post by Armand on Jan 25, 2009 22:41:49 GMT -5
There are all sorts of little tricks to negate the effects of that, Nicolas, the play of light on your skin or eyes. Or at least somewhat.
But you used to play solos in the theatre. I didn't realize you were so shy. Can this phobia be countered by company?
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Post by Nicolas de Lenfent on Jan 26, 2009 11:26:24 GMT -5
If they involve any sort of mind trickery, I suppose I'll go without. I can't stand it. I can't imagine how you do. You must be better at it than I am, because I imagine you would hate what happens to me as much as I do.
I do think you're right. It seems it must be the isolation. I used to want them to notice me, mortals and immortals alike. I want to stay away from them, now. I suppose living with Eleni fostered that in part, but it can't be entirely her. It's gotten worse since she left.
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Post by Armand on Jan 26, 2009 11:53:20 GMT -5
There are salves and lotions, little cosmetic things. Gloves for your hands and smoked glasses for your eyes. No mind trickery need be involved.
You are becoming a recluse. If you're not careful, you'll end up going into the ground.
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Post by Nicolas de Lenfent on Jan 26, 2009 12:00:48 GMT -5
It sounds a terrible pain, somehow. And you have to go into one of those stores to get those thing to begin with, don't you.
Then snap me out of it somehow, won't you? We can go to a theater together, can't we, perhaps this week?
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Post by Armand on Jan 26, 2009 12:02:59 GMT -5
If you want them, or would be willing, I would get them for you.
Yes, I was planning on it.
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Post by Nicolas de Lenfent on Jan 26, 2009 12:06:29 GMT -5
If you would prefer me incognito. Of course. Anything you want.
Armand. I wish there was some way to express. I do love you. You know that.
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