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Post by Jesse James on Nov 10, 2009 21:04:33 GMT -5
"An I don't wantcha to be" Jesse put his hand on Christians shoulder and sighed.
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Post by Christian Daaé on Nov 10, 2009 21:11:10 GMT -5
Finally, at the touch of the hand on his shoulder, he looked up at Jesse.
"Then you have to tell her." He said, voice still low.
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Post by Jesse James on Nov 12, 2009 5:13:25 GMT -5
"Tell 'er what? That I was cheatin on 'er the night muh son was born, thats why I wasn't there. That I care for her but I don't love 'er like I love-"
He stopped and turned around.
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Post by Christian Daaé on Nov 12, 2009 11:37:12 GMT -5
Christian clenched his fists, but he stayed where he was by the piano, instead only turning his head to keep his gaze on Jesse.
"So, what? Tell her nothing and keep on keeping me a secret, right?" He shook his head.
"That's not right."
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Post by Jesse James on Nov 12, 2009 17:25:29 GMT -5
"It's not" Jesse agreed not turning his face toward Christian "It ain't right fer me to be doin what I'm doin to either a ya, I'm just, I'm just fucking it all up again. Ya'll would be better off if I wasn't even around."
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Post by Christian Daaé on Nov 12, 2009 17:30:48 GMT -5
Christian sighed, turning his entire body around so that he was properly facing Jesse.
"Don't do that. That kind of thinking isn't going to help."
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Post by Jesse James on Nov 12, 2009 17:43:47 GMT -5
"No it's true, I got an get a little tipsy with a girl I don' even know, nine months later were gettin married n'havin a baby. She ain't all well yet, with her back still messed up from getting shot, which was prolly my fault, distractin her during that stupid revolution. I told her I loved her and god dammit I did then, I really did, till" he finally turned around "well till I met the most amazing person on the planet. And now, hell now I gotta tell that girl who I've been nothin but a pain, that I'm in love with someone else, that I'll be a father to our son, but I can't be a husband."
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Post by Christian Daaé on Nov 12, 2009 17:48:02 GMT -5
"Are you sure that's the way you want, it though?" He said quietly.
"You've known her longer than you have me. Can you really be sure I'm the better choice?"
He hated saying that, but it was better to be entirely sure than have it come up some time down the road. After the mess that had been his previous relationship, secrets were something that he'd come to detest when it came to these matters.
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Post by Jesse James on Nov 12, 2009 17:53:33 GMT -5
"Hell Chris, I don't know" he threw up his hands "she might be, but it ain't like I really know her past takin care of her. She's a beautiful women, through and through, but she's blank." He sighed "Ain't much to her, least as far as I can tell, nine months of what we been through, you don't have time to learn about someone."
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Post by Christian Daaé on Nov 12, 2009 18:01:28 GMT -5
He sighed, rubbing his forehead.
"I'm just asking. You should be sure before you make up your mind. I don't know her, but I don't think either of us would be happy if we were a 'no, wait, I change my mind' choice."
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Post by Jesse James on Nov 12, 2009 18:26:59 GMT -5
Jesse got quiet, he'd all ready made up his mind, it was just how to go about doing it. What he'd said was all true, he loved Christian, he cared for Diana, and he loved his son. He knew that he and Diana could never truly be happy, but in this society a woman with a child should be married, he didn't want to embarrass her and shame her by leaving her, for a man. It would be a scandal, and although neither of them were important, neither of them were rich, people knew them.
He looked down at the floor of the stage and noticed two wet drops on the floor, he was crying.
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Post by Christian Daaé on Nov 12, 2009 18:33:07 GMT -5
When he glanced up, his eyes widened a bit in shock, and then he was on his feet standing next to him.
"Jesse..."
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Post by Jesse James on Nov 12, 2009 18:35:08 GMT -5
"I-" he put his hands up in front of him and stuttered a moment full of babble before wiping his eyes "I'm sorry, I can't, I don't cry, I never-"
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Post by Christian Daaé on Nov 12, 2009 18:42:56 GMT -5
He hesitated for a moment before putting his arms around Jesse and pulling him into a hug.
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Post by Jesse James on Nov 12, 2009 18:45:43 GMT -5
Jesse quickly wrapped his arms around Christians waist and tried to control his tears, through his labored breathing, if Christians was listening, and he hoped he was, Jesse managed to say "It's been you, always you."
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