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Post by Phoenix on Jul 10, 2008 16:44:37 GMT -5
Phoenix forgot about dinner.
"But isn't that a good thing?" She frowned. Were rabbis like priests? She had no idea. "Rabbis can't fall in love?"
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Post by Benno on Jul 10, 2008 16:57:01 GMT -5
He smiled "Oof course they can-" he turned his hand so that he was holding hers, he didn't know why he did it, he just did.
"But she vas catholic, und fifteen years older dan I."
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Post by Phoenix on Jul 10, 2008 17:06:28 GMT -5
"Oh," she said. She was silent for a moment. "Did she love you back?"
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Post by Benno on Jul 10, 2008 19:18:31 GMT -5
"Ja" he replied with confidence "but she vas afraid und I vas only seventeen" he squeezed her hand "eventually mein parents found out, dey vere furious to say the least. Dey couldn't see vy I luffed her, dey vere good people, joost, a little closed minded."
Benno tried to hold back the tears, for so long he had been ignoring the pain, trying to hide it away with cause after cause, but now, it seemed, with this women, he finally could release it.
"Dere anger vas so terrible it caused me to quit school and moof in vith her, she tried to get me to leaf, she told me dat family vas more important than luf. But I vouldn't listen, for a year I asked her to be mein bride, to marry me so that ve could be together, but vas alvays sayinks no. She vas sick you see, vith vat I'm afraid I'll never knows."
"Den on New Years eef, she finally said yes und ve vere married das next day" he smiled "boot her illness had been gettinks vorse and vorse, und before we could consumate de marriage-" he looked down at the table and finally broke down.
((This is the most he's talked the ENTIRE time))
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Post by Phoenix on Jul 10, 2008 22:56:26 GMT -5
Phoenix was completely silent, her large eyes widening as he told his story. It was the saddest story she'd ever heard. It made sense, that this gentle man had such a troubled, romantic past. It made her want to wrap him in her arms and tell him he wasn't ever going to be hurt like that again.
When he started crying, she did. The first part, anyway. She stood and cradled him against her, soothing him with nonsense words.
"I'm so sorry," she said finally, her own eyes stinging.
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Post by Benno on Jul 11, 2008 2:35:44 GMT -5
He simply sobbed and pressed his face in to her stomach.
He was embarrassed to say the least, he barely knew this woman, but all ready he had divulged everything to her, everything he said he'd never remember.
"Sie war alle, dass ich gehabt habe!" His brain was clouded, suddenly forgetting that the woman before him did not speak German.
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Post by Phoenix on Jul 11, 2008 10:01:51 GMT -5
She felt at a loss, even as she felt another wave of tenderness wash through her. One and smoothed through his hair as she made "shh" noises.
"You need to get it all out," she assured him. "It's okay. I'm here."
She barely knew him. But Phoenix was one to make quick judgements, and she'd liked him the moment she saw him.
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Post by Benno on Jul 11, 2008 16:11:10 GMT -5
After a while his sobs cooled and turned in to sorrowful moans "Es tut mir leid Pheonix" he whispered through gasps of air "I-I mean I am sorry" he pulled away noticing the dampened patch he had left on her dress, shirt and pressed his eyes shut "I don't, I don't know vat come over me."
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Post by Phoenix on Jul 12, 2008 12:44:27 GMT -5
"It's okay, Ben," she said softly. "Don't worry about it."
She sat next to him, taking his hand in hers again.
"You have every right to be upset," Phoenix said. "Have you ever told anyone?"
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Post by Benno on Jul 12, 2008 16:20:14 GMT -5
He sniffled and rubbed his nose with his arm "Noo."
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Post by Phoenix on Jul 13, 2008 9:31:52 GMT -5
Phoenix pulled a handkerchief out of her bag and handed it to Benno. She'd been upset not to find Kleenex here.
"Well, you can't keep stuff like that inside. It boils over." She couldn't believe this sweet man had no one to turn to. It was absurd. "I'm so sorry about what happened, Ben. I can't even imagine going through that."
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Post by Benno on Jul 13, 2008 18:10:22 GMT -5
"Danke Phoenix, danke" he looked to her with the saddest smiled "I joost vish ve had had de money to find out vat it vas" he blew his nose quietly in to the handkerchief. "I vish I could haf done somedink."
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Post by Phoenix on Jul 14, 2008 10:05:49 GMT -5
"I'm sure you did everything you could," Phoenix assured him. "I wish I could do something." Her heart went out to him without reservation. She trusted he'd have done anything he could.
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Post by Benno on Jul 14, 2008 19:46:00 GMT -5
He rubbed his eyes, the dark circles below them were now quite prominent, and his boyish good looks slightly diminished with each passing moment. But he smiled, even though it hurt, he smiled.
"Efen vis eferythink, I knows dat I did anythink and everythink dat I could, boot it hurt so bad.."
((I realized that I've been putting an english accent in to his and turning "th" at the beginning in to "f" instead of "s" heh, like it matters, the emcee sounds like someone threw him in to a melting pot of languages and told him to speak. ))
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Post by Phoenix on Jul 15, 2008 13:36:55 GMT -5
His sorry state just made her heart go out to him more. He was so unlike his brother, who was blithe in the face of... well, everything. "I know," she said. "I mean, I don't know, personally. I've never... But... Is there anything I can do for you, Ben? I know--we'll go out tomorrow. I'll get up early, and... when do you work?" ((I don't really try to read your accents aloud. ![;)](//storage.proboards.com/forum/images/smiley/wink.png) ))
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