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Post by Julian on Oct 30, 2007 19:47:51 GMT -5
The possibilities are endless. Just...
*Julian lowered his eyes, but did not move away.*
"It is all right. There are some parts that are hard to explain. I don't mean to obfuscate the process. What else can I try to tell you?"
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Post by Erik on Oct 30, 2007 19:58:41 GMT -5
"No, no. Erik knows. There is no need for you to have formulated a detailed response before now, if it is instinctive."
I might as well try to describe how Erik sings as he does.
*He wove the fingers of one hand through Julian's.*
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Post by Julian on Oct 30, 2007 20:05:30 GMT -5
*Julian gripped his hand, nuzzling his face against Erik's neck.*
What is it that you want? What can I help you do?
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Post by Erik on Oct 30, 2007 20:07:30 GMT -5
Nothing... everything...
"I don't know yet."
Erik wants you to stay with him.
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Post by Julian on Oct 30, 2007 20:21:03 GMT -5
*Julian kissed Erik tenderly.*
You know that no one can remove me from your presence but you. If it please you for me to be with you always, then I will never leave your side.
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Post by Erik on Oct 30, 2007 20:47:54 GMT -5
*He felt so... complete when they were together. It didn't take the unquenchable yearning away entirely, but it was enough to convince him of the essential rightness of Julian's presence.*
Erik worries for your corporeality. If you are here, but only visible, what then?
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Post by Julian on Oct 30, 2007 20:58:39 GMT -5
*Julian shrank back instinctively in frustration.*
Then I am to be denied for fear that I will be denied?
*He looked wounded, but understood Erik's concern.*
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Post by Erik on Oct 30, 2007 21:06:58 GMT -5
"No!"
*Erik reached for him impulsively, crushing his lips to Julian's.*
You know Erik will not deny you. Erik knows you will not let him, either.
*He drew back, cupping Julian's face.*
"I merely wonder what I did without you."
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Post by Julian on Oct 30, 2007 21:19:00 GMT -5
((zomg. Brandi is melted.))
*Julian nuzzled his face in Erik's hands.*
I am sorry, Mother. I just...I can't shake this feeling that I don't belong.
*He glanced down and then up and back to Erik.*
It's as if Fate was pitted against us. I just...I only feel whole when I am with you. Like I have a purpose...a place here.
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Post by Erik on Oct 30, 2007 21:22:58 GMT -5
Then how can you not belong? *Erik asked with the willful blindness of logic.*
"Shh," *he said aloud, putting an arm around Julian and cradling him close.* "Erik is used to getting his way."
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Post by Julian on Oct 30, 2007 21:30:03 GMT -5
Not always.
*Julian quickly banished the thought of Christine.*
Of course. Forgive me. I don't mean to doubt. It is just that things seem so uncertain right now.
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Post by Erik on Oct 30, 2007 21:40:18 GMT -5
Yes... yes, I know.
*Erik was trying to quell his own questions about the future. Or maybe they were Julian's. It didn't matter; he intended to have it all. Everything he'd wanted. He was so close; Christine was, for the moment, lost to him. But Christian wasn't. And he had a family. A face. He was close.
It didn't matter that the things he wanted could not all exist in the same space.*
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Post by Julian on Oct 30, 2007 21:51:45 GMT -5
*Erik's thoughts tore at Julian's heart. He snuggled against Erik, desperate to keep his focus.*
"Stay? We don't have to..."
do anything.
"...just stay. With me? For a little while at least."
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Post by Erik on Oct 30, 2007 21:57:42 GMT -5
"Yes."
We can do whatever you need, Julian.
*He held the boy close, taking in the curious non-smell of him, the awe-inspiring feeling of being needed. No one had ever depended on him. Now, someone did. A few someones.*
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Post by Julian on Oct 30, 2007 22:04:16 GMT -5
But I value you more than they do. I put you above all others.
*The thought was quiet, rippling just beneath the surface in a passing moment. He lowered his eyes, pulling Erik back on the bed with him and snuggling against him.*
"Thank you. It helps."
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