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Post by Erik on Oct 11, 2007 22:44:21 GMT -5
No. We will make this right, *Erik thought firmly.* Death will know... something.
*Erik's hand traced Julian's outline, as if he, too, was reluctant to discover they could not touch. Then, resolving to apply to this the headlong manner he did nearly everything else, he reached for Julian's hand, and their fingers twined solidly around each other.*
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Post by Julian on Oct 11, 2007 22:46:24 GMT -5
*Relief washed over Julian, soaking into his features as his lashes fluttered shut. He instinctively snuggled against Erik.*
Don't let me go. I don't want to be lost again.
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Post by Erik on Oct 11, 2007 23:06:56 GMT -5
*Letting out the breath he hadn't known he was holding, Erik drew Julian closer.
He had never been this unself-conscious.*
Erik won't let you. You came here--you will stay. Erik wills it so.
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Post by Julian on Oct 11, 2007 23:13:27 GMT -5
*Julian kissed Erik's chest softly in unspoken gratitude.*
Is it common to be so tired? I feel...strange.
*He nuzzle his face on Erik's skin.*
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Post by Erik on Oct 11, 2007 23:19:28 GMT -5
*Erik thought there might be a great many reasons one ought to feel strange after sleeping with your full-grown, two-month-old son who'd been pulled from within you on some ethereal plane, but he decided against actually forming the thought coherently enough to be read.*
Erik thinks so. When it is... satisfying.
*Could they just stay here forever? Forget the myriad duties Erik had seemed to pick up recently, the confusion of so much social intercourse he was not equipped to navigate. This was easier.*
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Post by Julian on Oct 11, 2007 23:33:48 GMT -5
*Julian snuggled closer, whispering groggily against Erik's skin.*
"It's not like...the others. Is that..."
*He glanced up to his gaze.*
"...because you're a man?"
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Post by Erik on Oct 11, 2007 23:40:23 GMT -5
*Erik chuckled lightly. He could so easily forget how young Julian was.*
"I don't think so. A man just means different parts."
It's this. Don't you know? This... and love.
*Julian loved him. It hit Erik like a revelation, but more of a tide than a bolt from the blue. Julian loved him. Unreservedly, unashamedly, and altogether uniquely. When had anyone ever been loved like this?
Only, he thought, when Erik loved.*
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Post by Julian on Oct 11, 2007 23:44:07 GMT -5
((Aww...*squee*))
*Julian looked up to Erik with strange innocence.*
"But it...is not wrong for me...to feel this way?"
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Post by Erik on Oct 12, 2007 0:11:46 GMT -5
"Undoubtedly," *Erik said mildly.* "Culturally and all that. Then again, one still gets sentenced to hard labor for doing such things with unrelated males, so Erik is not entirely certain that society knows what it's doing. Incest taboos are primarily formed during the long period of cohabitation that raising a family requires--and is only biologically necessary to avoid inbreeding."
*He frowned.*
"I shouldn't tell Megan, if I were you."
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Post by Julian on Oct 12, 2007 0:15:42 GMT -5
*Julian's brow furrowed and he nestled against Erik.*
"I don't think she likes me. I don't understand. I tried to be civil, and now I've tried to protect her get..."
*He looked up again.*
"What am I doing wrong?"
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Post by Erik on Oct 12, 2007 0:26:09 GMT -5
*Erik sighed. This was one thing he rather thought he understood--not all of it, but some.*
"Nothing, Julian. You are. That is enough. You are different, and that frightens people. You occurred in an unorthodox manner, and as the result of my taking pleasure somewhere other than her. And women can be most untrusting creatures. Erik is afraid, my boy, that you will have to content yourself with seeking civility from her and no more. But she does not like Erik so much as she once thought she did, either."
Perhaps you're... too much of me.
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Post by Julian on Oct 12, 2007 1:04:41 GMT -5
*Julian pressed himself closer still, as if trying to worry his way into Erik's skin.*
How can there be such a thing? I want to make you proud. To do you justice.
"I will try to understand her."
*He pursed his lips for a moment.*
"But I didn't...I'd never...with Prosperpina."
*His eyes sought Erik's trying to show him the truth of it.*
"I may be a monster, but I am not only one."
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Post by Erik on Oct 12, 2007 8:55:16 GMT -5
((*sniff*))
You do. Erik's pride is not contingent on other peoples' opinions.
*Erik met his eyes calmly.*
"Erik is glad you care for the girl. He was uncertain, but... She is more like us, than not, I think."
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Post by Julian on Oct 12, 2007 17:14:42 GMT -5
*Julian pursed his lips for a moment. He didn't want to care about her. She was a tool. He had meant her to be...*
"She...is lonely. I don't want her to be."
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Post by Erik on Oct 13, 2007 0:52:53 GMT -5
"It is early. But Erik can see she is not as he was, at her age. Already tested and bitter. She is, however, intelligent. Enough to be of interest, anyway. Have you not found it so? Perhaps she will have us, at least."
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