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Post by Lizzie on Sept 21, 2007 20:36:44 GMT -5
"Yes--No. I mean...maybe. I..."
*Lizzie swallowed and turned away, hugging herself. Her voice was so meek it was almost inaudible.*
"I'm scared."
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Post by Alex on Sept 21, 2007 20:44:02 GMT -5
*Alex leaned closer, wishing she could take the girl in her arms and comfort her. Somehow, she thought it might have the opposite effect.*
"I'm so sorry, Lizzie. But I have to ask; are you afraid of what might happen? Or of me?"
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Post by Lizzie on Sept 21, 2007 20:47:21 GMT -5
*Lizzie felt tears stinging her eyes. She wiped at them bitterly. She tightened her lips and didn't look back to Alex.*
"I'm scared that...that there's somethin' wrong with me....fer likin' 'ya like I do."
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Post by Alex on Sept 22, 2007 15:35:42 GMT -5
*It was Alex's turn to lower her eyes.*
"That's for you to decide," *she said softly.* "But for myself... I've had to come to terms with it. I've had to decide that I wouldn't be like this if it was... wrong."
*She shrugged.*
"Maybe that's the devil's excuse. But it's all I know how to do."
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Post by Lizzie on Sept 22, 2007 17:13:15 GMT -5
"I just...don't know."
*Lizzie sighed and shifted slightly as if in indecision.*
"There's just so much to work through. Trust has to be built again, on both sides. You have to learn if, if we're even the same people we were. If we can fit in each other's lives. It's a long and important process. And... can we just skip it?"
*Lizzie looked back to Alex with hope and fresh tears in her eyes. Her voice was faint.*
"Can you just be kissing me now?"
((Sorry about the absence of Lizzie's accent, but I couldn't resist the Willow/Tara love. Because...yea lesbian witches!))
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Post by Alex on Sept 22, 2007 21:40:48 GMT -5
((Oh my god.))
*Alex blinked a few times. She started to analyze the suddenly vociferous Lizzie, to wonder what answer she could possibly have, but she hadn't got too far before the last question hit her. Like magnets suddenly turned the right way, Alex's lips found hers unerringly, and all at once they were wrapped around each other, kissing with a kind of fever mixed with a desperation born of the knowledge Lizzie would stop her at any moment.*
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Post by Lizzie on Sept 22, 2007 21:49:33 GMT -5
((Couldn't help it. The temptation was too great.))
*Lizzie wasn't sure what she should have expected. Things were too complex, they made her head hurt. So she had decided to stop thinking for a while. Just a little while. They weren't in public. Well...not real public. And Jeremy wouldn't tell, right? She just wanted...so much. She clung to Alex and stumbled backwards, smacking them both into the wall behind her. It felt strangely reassuring against her back, the warmth of Alex on her front and her all tingly in the middle. Her kisses were urgent, some echo of a desperate need to express something she didn't have the words for. She wasn't sure where this was leading, but at the moment, she couldn't be bothered with such things. She was here and warm and wonderful. She could think of nothing else.*
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Post by Alex on Sept 24, 2007 10:13:07 GMT -5
*Alex had been afraid, for a moment, that Lizzie would come to her senses when knocked into the wall. But she seemed deliciously ignorant of that fact, or of her previous worries. And Alex could not help but press her case the only way she knew how. She wound a hand through Lizzie's hair, the other creeping, nearly chastely, to her waist. For all her protests, the girl was warm and receptive and gave as good as she got.
She never wanted it to end.*
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Post by Lizzie on Sept 24, 2007 10:16:49 GMT -5
*Lizzie was dimly aware of Alex's hands moving, but it didn't matter, not now. All she wanted was her lips and her need and...and...her brow furrowed and her pace slowed. She wasn't sure what came next. Suddenly a bit nervous, she tried to hide her apprehension in more fevered kisses.*
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Post by Alex on Sept 24, 2007 10:57:57 GMT -5
*Alex sensed a change in Lizzie's mood. She gently disengaged and ran a hand along the side of her face.*
"Shh. Breathe, Lizzie. It's not a race."
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Post by Lizzie on Sept 24, 2007 11:07:32 GMT -5
*Lizzie ducked her head and chewed her lip.*
"I know...I just...I don't know..."
What comes next.
*She swallowed and shrugged, not lifting her eyes.*
"I just don't know what to 'xpect, that's all."
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Post by Alex on Sept 24, 2007 11:24:44 GMT -5
*Alex sighed and kissed her softly.*
"Only what you want, Lizzie. Nothing more."
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Post by Lizzie on Sept 24, 2007 11:27:07 GMT -5
*Lizzie's lashes fluttered for a moment, but her brow furrowed as she whispered against Alex's lips.*
"And how do I know what that is? I mean...what'dya want?"
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Post by Alex on Sept 24, 2007 11:49:52 GMT -5
*Alex leaned her forehead against Lizzie's.*
"I just... don't want to hurt you anymore, Lizzie. Tell me what I can do."
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Post by Lizzie on Sept 24, 2007 11:57:43 GMT -5
*Lizzie face scrunched up in thought.*
"Maybe we could..."
*She suddenly remembered Jeremy and what he had offered and hoped he wouldn't mind. He seemed to be trying to busy himself well enough by sleeping so she smiled and grabbed Alex's hand and pulled her to the door that led to the room upstairs.*
"Maybe we could talk about it in private."
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