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Post by Enjolras on Mar 8, 2008 23:54:03 GMT -5
"Glad that you don't have to live with the guilt, Bella! Glad that you don't have to blame yourself!" *He spoke in a low voice, right into her face, his eyes flashing again. He turned and left the house, off to the nearest drinking establishment of any gentlemanly quality.*
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Post by Belladonna on Mar 30, 2008 15:13:58 GMT -5
**NEW DAY**
*Belladonna sat in the library, gazing out the window and humming to herself. Ever since she'd met Henry, she'd been positively glowing and acting like a teenager in love for the first time. She hadn't seen Enjolras around and had barely thought about him at all, loopy as she was.*
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Post by Enjolras on Apr 2, 2008 9:49:19 GMT -5
*Enjolras could see her slipping away, and he was no longer doing anything to prevent it. Some distant part of him was in agony; some exiled corner of his heart was still devoted to loving her. For the most part, however, he had blocked out all feeling and convinced himself that he was happy, happy that she had found someone. His hopes when she had awoken had been dashed as soon as they'd told him she didn't remember. He had lost all will to exist without her.*
*And he'd become a LOVEHOBO. it showed. He didn't shave as often as previously; his hair had gone lanky and grown too long; his breath nearly always smelled of strong brandy. His clothes were disheveled and not oft-changed.*
*His decanter of brandy had run out in his study, but he knew where it was kept in the sideboard of the library. He stumbled in and, realizing Bella was there but not able to register it properly in his groggy, alcohol-inhibited brain, blinked confusedly at her.*
*The contrast between them was astounding.*
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Post by Belladonna on Apr 2, 2008 20:57:36 GMT -5
WHAT ABOUT THE SHIRTLESS FIGHT SCENEEEEE?
Enjolras! *Belladonna jumped to her feet, blushing slightly as she realized that she'd pretty much forgotten about her husband.* Are- are you alright?
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Post by Enjolras on Apr 3, 2008 17:27:09 GMT -5
*He swallowed, but his throat felt somewhat dry.*
"No." *He said simply, almost smiling at the thought.* "No, I'm not fine at all." *It wasn't funny, but to him, it was cruelly humorous. He stumbled over to the sideboard and fumbled to grab the decanter of brandy.*
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Post by Belladonna on Apr 3, 2008 20:53:14 GMT -5
*She bit her lip, not meeting his eyes.* Is there- is there anything I can do for you?
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Post by Enjolras on Apr 3, 2008 20:57:33 GMT -5
*He scowled, his humor bad again.*
"I know very well what you're doing." *He said, not turning around.* "I'm not a fool. So don't ask if there's anything wrong, and don't ask if you can fix it, because I know you don't really want to. Go back to your young man, Bella. Go back and enjoy his youth and his good humor, because you won't get either from me."
*He made his way toward the door.*
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Post by Belladonna on Apr 3, 2008 21:16:57 GMT -5
((*resists urge to copy/paste/edit Mer's 'You don't get to call me whore!' speech from Grey's.*))
*She flushed, embarrassed but also slightly angry.* Stop it, Enjolras. I...haven't done anything wrong. I've become very close to someone, yes, because he doesn't make me feel like an idiot for not remembering my way around my life. He isn't impatient with me and he doesn't make me feel like my being alive is a mistake. And it's so very, very nice to have that from him, Enjolras, because here, I do feel like an unlucky mistake. An accident.
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Post by Enjolras on Apr 3, 2008 21:22:19 GMT -5
"How can I make you feel like anything when I've avoided you?" *He asked stubbornly, angrily.* "And if it's an annulment or a divorce you want, I can certainly get it for you. A votre service, madame." *He said sarcastically, bowing as he did so and nearly losing his balance.*
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Post by Belladonna on Apr 3, 2008 21:28:30 GMT -5
*She ignored the second part of his statement.* That's exactly it! You've avoided me, ever since I woke up! You gave up on me completely, right when I needed the most help. You ignore me so completely that it makes me feel like I'm a child being punished for something that I didn't do!
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Post by Enjolras on Apr 3, 2008 21:32:41 GMT -5
"I've avoided you because I can't stand the idea of you not remembering! I can't stand the idea that you'd run into the arms of another man because you have no idea what we'd been through. You don't know that I'm not one to announce my sentiments readily, you don't know that I'm utterly useless at understanding you!" *He cried. Give him the National Guard outnumbering him ten to one any day; he'd rather face ten bayonets than something he didn't understand.*
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Post by Belladonna on Apr 3, 2008 21:43:56 GMT -5
I'm not so excited about not remembering either, Enjolras! I needed your help, but you couldn't- wouldn't- give it to me! I didn't run into the arms of another man! I met a very lovely person who helped me out when I got lost! And no, of course I don't know what we've been through or anything about your personality- that's another reason I needed you to be around! I needed to get to know you, to figure out who you are and who I am and who we were together! And if you never understood me in the first place, how the hell did we end up married?!?
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Post by Enjolras on Apr 3, 2008 21:47:12 GMT -5
*Drunk as he was, he didn't quite realize that he might be shooting himself in the foot by arguing with her.*
"Lovely people who help you when you get lost don't put that look on your face, Bella!" *He snapped.* "And I may not have understood you completely, but you understood me, and I was willing to make an effort. Evidently I failed miserably, but I know one thing for certain: I used to be the one that put that look on your face. I used to be the one because of whom you sat around humming."
*His voice was somewhere between angry and broken, and it made an odd contrast. Especially with the added factor of alcohol.*
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Post by Belladonna on Apr 3, 2008 21:49:24 GMT -5
If you wanted our relationship back, then, why didn't you at least try to help me understand you? I can't do it all by myself with you stalking around avoiding me! And I... *She faltered.* I certainly don't have any kind of look on my face. I don't know what you're talking about. And I'm just humming because...it's a beautiful day outside.
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Post by Enjolras on Apr 3, 2008 21:56:39 GMT -5
*The truth was that he just plain couldn't go to her when she couldn't remember. He could stir hundreds of students into action; he could lead an insurrection; he could escape death. But he couldn't understand people's emotions.*
"Don't lie, Bella. I know that look. I know that humming. Don't try to pass it off as something innocent."
*He took a step closer, glaring, but there was an unfathomable pain in those eyes.*
"I barely understand myself anymore; how am I supposed to explain to you? I've gone through the past ten years in a haze, Bella, thinking I'd lost you for good! Thinking I had lost the one person that I loved above all others in this entire world! So excuse me if your sudden reappearance, without any recollection of my having adored you, worshiped you, loved you, has confused me!"
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