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Post by Enjolras on Jul 1, 2007 21:50:56 GMT -5
*His arm instinctively tighened around her as he woke up, but she wasn't there. He opened his eyes to see her trying to get out.*
"Where're you going?" *He asked, confused.*
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Post by Belladonna on Jul 1, 2007 21:55:13 GMT -5
*She spun around, automatically pulling the sheet tighter around herself.* I just, um...I was just going to, uh... *She had no idea what to say. What could she say? That now, on the morning after, everything had been a mistake? Well, it was, but still! She couldn't just blurt that out. Right? Right.*
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Post by Enjolras on Jul 1, 2007 21:57:29 GMT -5
*He sighed, sat up and hung his head.*
"You're thinking it was a mistake, aren't you?" *He asked quietly.*
*He glared at his hands, as if they were somehow responsible.* "I knew I should have stopped myself! his is all my fault!" *He growled to himself. He looked at Bella.*
"Please... it's entirely my fault. Don't blame yourself--I'd understand if you wanted to leave." *He said, a pained expression on his face.*
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Post by Belladonna on Jul 1, 2007 21:59:48 GMT -5
*She shook her head awkwardly* No, I'm sorry, it was my fault, I shouldn't have..I just...it's not you at all, I promise, it's just...I told you, I can't make you happy and...and I've hurt you and I'm so, so sorry...I just have to stop myself before I-I hurt you again. That's why...why I was going...
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Post by Enjolras on Jul 1, 2007 22:02:18 GMT -5
*He stood up, wrapping a red sheet around his waist, leaving his chest bare ((nnnggghhh)). He reched out and grabbed her wrist before she could leave.*
*He looked at her intensely.* "You haven't hurt me, Bella--far from it. I'm the one who took advantage of your fragile emotions--if anyone should be hurt and upset, it's you."
*A lump built in the back of his throat. He had really screwed things up this time, and he knew that if she left, she wasn't going to come back.*
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Post by Belladonna on Jul 1, 2007 22:06:31 GMT -5
*It took all of her inner strength to pull her hand back and look at him passively when all she wanted to do was grab him and kiss him.* Enjolras, I swear, I'm not fragile- far from it. And I don't allow myself to be taken advantage of. I can say no. And I should have. Because I...am not right for you. And I won't hold you back any more.
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Post by Enjolras on Jul 1, 2007 22:12:48 GMT -5
*The lump grew, but he looked at her intensely.*
"Hold me back from what, Bella? From sitting around here, doing nothing?" *He took his other hand and cupped her cheek.*
"If you don't regret this, then I'm the happiest man in the world. I only regret our decision if you do. If you do, I don't blame you if you want to leave... I'm a selfish person. I'm the one who's not right for you--and not right for anyone else."
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Post by Belladonna on Jul 1, 2007 22:19:54 GMT -5
Stop. *She took a step back* Stop saying those things. You...are perfect. You certainly haven't made so many mistakes as I have. And when your brother dies, you'll be elevated to an excellent position. You deserve a girl who can help you. A girl who is happy and pretty and bubbly and friendly, a girl without a past, a girl as perfect as you are. Not me. Never me. I'm not worthy of having you. So I...I apologize for leading you...astray. I'm so sorry.
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Post by Enjolras on Jul 1, 2007 22:26:02 GMT -5
*He kept his gaze on her.*
"Don't apologize, Bella." *He said roughly.* "Don't ever apologize for making someone happier than they've been in their entire life, if only for a few precious hours. Causing the death of each and every one of your friends--that's a crime worth apologizing for, if there were anyone to hear."
*He said, his voice cracking. He would not cry, it was entirely too much like Marius to cry.*
*He took a step closer.* "No other person could possibly make me forget the way I got them killed except you, and no other person could ever make me feel the passion you have." *He said, his eyes pleading with her.*
((and Lo, he lets out a wangsty speech!))
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Post by Belladonna on Jul 1, 2007 22:32:22 GMT -5
((Noooo don't make him cry I can't say no to someone crying...argh...noooo!))
*She softened slightly when his voice cracked-she hated it when people cried. But she remained mostly firm.* Enjolras, no. I'm certain that your friends all knew what they were getting into when they decided to fight...you should be proud of their memories. It isn't your fault that they died. And I am not someone that can make you happy. You just think that I can, because I'm the first girl you've been with since being alive again. I'm your rebound girl from death. When you meet the girl who is truly right for you, you will... *She took a quick breath* ...you'll realize that. *She gave a slight smile* You're a passionate person, Enjolras. You'll find her. You'll find the perfect girl for you.
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Post by Enjolras on Jul 1, 2007 22:35:22 GMT -5
*Tears finally welled up in his eyes, not falling.*
"But can't you see, Bella--you've never been the rebound, not to me. I've already found the right person."
*He felt like a complete pansy, wearing his feelings on his sleeve (or lack thereof, at the moment), but he couldn't bear to lose her.*
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Post by Belladonna on Jul 1, 2007 22:39:11 GMT -5
((Hmph. Playing on my weakness. What kind of person are you? )) *She had to clench her hands into tight little fists, her nails biting into her palms, to stop herself from rushing forward and kissing him until he didn't look ready to cry anymore.* You think that I'm not a rebound, Enjolras, but I am! I'm just the girl that was here when you were brought back- if I had been any other girl, it would be the same way. It's just the rush of coming back. It's nothing more than that.
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Post by Enjolras on Jul 1, 2007 22:42:40 GMT -5
((I will not mention Christian and Satine. I will not meniton Christian and Satine. *chants*))
*One tear finally fell, and he hung his head, giving up.*
"If you were really that desperate to go, then you could have just left." *He said, staring at the floor, his voice completely gone form its normal strong baritone. It was shattered into pieces, along with what had been left of his heart.*
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Post by Belladonna on Jul 1, 2007 22:44:35 GMT -5
((Of course you won't ;D )) *Bella buried her face in her hands* Please don't be upset...don't be hurt...please, understand...
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Post by Enjolras on Jul 1, 2007 22:46:48 GMT -5
((MUST. NOT. MUST. NOT.))
*He looked up at her, eyes anguished.*
"You excpect me not to be hurt by the fact that the one person I've ever cared about this deeply is begging me to let her leave?"
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